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杨丞琳匿名的好友

2009-12-22T18:35:00.014+08:00

终于下载到这首歌了！！看《海派甜心》时，就一直注意着这首歌。
它总是在那些回忆时所引起的伤感片断播出。
如，在第5集，达浪（罗志祥饰）误会他被宝珠（杨丞琳饰）抛弃时，在雨中奔跑的那一
刻，然后镜头转移到3年后，宝珠在播音室做节目说的那些话。
一句话- - 感动
唱得太好了，歌词太棒了。
二话不说，一次来欣赏这首《匿名的好友》
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独送昏暗不离的风回忆里被爱

那股激动天色好红

温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容

一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字

心还跳动却没重逢

只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动

也许我们当时年纪真的太小

从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友

其实我的执著依然执著
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱

那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择又不仅是尊重

不能握的手　從此匿名的朋友

其實我的執著依然執著

與你無關　淚自行吸收

不能握的手

卻比親人更親厚

但所有如果　都沒有如果

只有失去的溫柔　最溫柔

不能握的手　從此匿名的朋友

其實我的執著依然執著

卻決心和你不再聯絡

不能握的手　卻比愛人更長久

當所有如果都沒有如果

只有失去的擁有　最永久

the wind cries mary

2009-12-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

decided to give my pathetic blog layout a change.

and these templates come in very peculiar names, like the one i'm using >> the wind cries mary

god knows what that means??

many had asked, why praeludium? what language is that, what does it mean?
back in 2006, when i was in the midst of deducing my blog's name, i flipped open my piano scores, bach's well-tempered clavier to be precise, and ta-da!!

p-r-a-e-l-u-d-i-u-m

spells the synonym to prelude in i think er.. german? (coz bach was a german.. :P) and as to everyone's comprehension, prelude means the beginning.

i didn't wanted to use the mundane blog title, say for example; my daily routine, my life through words, speak your heart out, etc..
something short and simple yet special enough is .... er.. special enough for me. haha..

oh well, i am still as sluggish as always.

leaping over

2009-12-16T23:48:00.011+08:00

time does fly.

without realizing it, the 6th week of semester 3 is coming to an end, and i have yet to find myself in the right position throughout the sem. coupled along with the design tasks for orientation, i couldn't help but to admit that i am drifting my interest and enthusiasm away from pivoting myself on the study desk for some serious study drills. the mood just doesn't seem to be stimulated.

in less than a year's time, i'll be leaving the land where i'm bred for 21 years. strange as it may seem, somewhere at a hidden corner deep inside me couldn't really feel the excitement of the coming departure. why is it so?

friends are leaving to overseas one by one, those who are graduating soon will be stepping into their respective busy working life. days would be very different from then. we cannot make guaranty for our friendships will stay on long, stay on strong. possibly there may be a day, when we stumbled upon each other on streets, you, my friend, may not recognize me anymore. and even if you do, could it be just a simple hi-bye greeting?

it amazes me why people of our former generations were able to maintain close relationships for their life. grow old together, familes of old friends spending holidays together that even their later generations became good friends, friends offering help whenever the need arises, flockering to hospital wards after getting news of you being admitted and still laugh at how frail each other looked like when compared to 20 years back. scenes like these often amaze me. i know i would be hungering for these things to happen to me when i grow old. don't you, my friend?

ok. talking about studies, i seriously have zero initiative to open up those terrifying module guides. pharmacy years ain't hard to survive so far, but things are going to get serious after christmas break. i'm already indulging in a holiday mood. ah!! christmas will be spent in singapore this year in conjunction to seokkhoon's wedding. hopefully it's an all wells end wells wrap up for the year 2010.

make me a working ant next year. i will have no qualms. bring it on, whatever you are, microbiology, pharmacology, physical pharmacy, nor biopharmacy, turbo's on, i'll nailed it all!!

so looking forward for the juniors' orientation. oh!! what pleasure would it bring to see the vicinity filled with your artworks-- orientation banner and incoming pharmacy students wearing t-shirts of your design. just crossing my fingers that they'll all turn up in their most decent forms.

oh! christmas, grant my final wishes for the year 2009 and i'll celebrate 'you' in the grandest manner. MUACKS!!

what an invigorating start!

2009-12-12T15:20:00.007+08:00

yeap! i've got myself a new haircut. ask me how did i muster so much courage to chop off something that has been a part of me for 3 years, i do not know. but what i am certain of is, i've made THE RIGHT choice.

what i can see in the mirror is a brand new self, enhanced with poise, confidence, and of course, more joy. there were so many comments about the new haircut, and surprisingly, ALL of them are positive. it has been a very long time since i've last regained my self-confidence, or have i ever gain any, i'm not sure.

carrying the current hairstyle, seemed to me that i've much much much less burden, both physically and mentally. like a unimate of mine said, i looked more "approachable", hahaha, younger, happier and worry-free. sounded exactly like gigi leung's《短发》。。

-我已剪短我的发，剪断了牵挂-

and

THIS IS A FACT

i've learned to see things in a wider prospective, learned to give and take, learned to let go of things i'm not in control of, and now i'm a happier person. so many coincidences happened since i've gotten the haircut, whether or not it was because i'm seeing things differently now, episodes of "lost and found" happiness kept occuring.

out of the sudden, i've found many warm-hearted people who were willing to lend me a helping hand whenever i need them. and i know, that this would be one of the most wonderful start to a brand new year ahead.

[ONCE AND FOR ALL, I WOULD LIKE TO EXPRESS MY MOST SINCERE GRATITUDE TO EVERYONE WHO LISTENED, HELPED, AND STOOD BY MY SIDE ALL ALONG.]

舍得，有舍必有得

2009-12-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

究竟我们一直在执着的东西真的那么重要吗？
有没有想过，如果把那一份执着给抛开，学会舍下，会否有另一番体会?

今天，我终于能真正明白“舍得”的意思
人生啊，凡事都好像冥冥中安排好了
这不是逆来顺受，只是随缘
很多事情我们不能完完全全掌控着
若不能如愿以偿，换来的只有失落感

舍得舍得，有舍才有得
原来这才是永恒不变的道理
只是身为凡族的我们似乎还未了解到过中的奥妙
舍得，虽然只是简单的这两个字，意义却可大呀！

不执着，我更开心
懂放下，我更轻松
巧合与否，不再执着的我，仿佛之前失去的东西，都一一获寻
不顺心的事都有了解码
若这是巧合，那上天今天对我的眷顾也说的上慷慨
也许是因为老天怜悯我舍下了某些东西，所以就让我“得”回一些东西
这算不算等价交换叻？

尚雯婕我想我是你的女人

2009-11-30T23:08:00.005+08:00

晚间的 988 就常常会听到一些非常触动人心的歌。这次想为大家推荐这首听似简单的旋律，柔和吉他声为伴奏，又增添多一份的感触的好歌。

这位2006年的《超级女声》冠军--尚雯婕，声音温柔，低缓，非常有穿透力。尤其喜欢她独特的鼻音，恰到好处地扩张着歌词里的情绪。希望大家也能和我一样，暂时放下心头所有的烦恼，让我们一起细心聆听这首《我想我是你的女人》

最冷清晨梦醒时分
梦终于消散抛下我泪痕
像追了一段太远的旅程
最后却来到了无人小镇

爱若只能隔岸观火
梦越真伤便越是狠
有时候我承认守在你身旁
其实也是一种沉沦

我想我是你的女人
心甘情愿做你爱情的替身
你谢幕转身我会捡起剧本
重新活一遍你给我的伤痕

我想我是你的女人
哪怕我们是两个世界的人
只愿押上此生期盼你回身
冲我微笑那一瞬
怎么会眉紧锁的留下恨

徐佳莹一样的月光

2009-11-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

好喜欢这首歌，尤其是她唱到副歌的部分，真假音操控的很好！！

将残的烛光找影子陪伴诉说著它的梦想有多亮
是否持续的发烫
老旧的GUITAR 交集了你和我的时光在身旁永不忘
还是不停的歌
唱依然是昨天脑中记忆它为何停滞不前
跨越了明天可否更加接近永远
西元几千年或许我已经化成天使离开
心中几万年一直到天堂相见

一样的月光怎麽看得我越来越心慌
你留下的背影放心上
回忆痴痴地陪在我身旁
一样的月光就像彩虹洒在我身上
喔~就这样吧我的爱
让寂寞的月光洒落我的窗

将残的烛光找影子陪伴诉说著它的梦想有多亮
是否持续的发烫
老旧的GUITAR 交集了你和我的时光在身旁永不忘
还是不停的歌唱
依然是昨天脑中记忆它为何停滞不前
跨越了明天可否更加接近永远
西元几千年或许我已经化成天使离开
心中几万年一直到天堂相见

I WANNA BE A BRIDESMAID!!!

2009-11-22T17:33:00.003+08:00

just because i'm taller than most of my cousin sisters, they do not allow me to be their bridesmaid..sob, sob :(

i don't care!! i must get the chance to be a bridesmaid for once in my lifetime. i want to get all the FREE gowns, makeups, hairstyling and manicure!!

the only person i can think of who 'might' allow me to be her bridesmaid is CHOCK!! aren't you honoured? hahah.. she's the only person i err... think so ... of equally height i supposed..

ok! it's a deal! chock! i be your bridesmaid ar. in return i shall let you be mine if you want to.. ahahha.. ok ar?

ON LAH!

婚姻，身心结合

2009-11-20T18:21:00.004+08:00

在不久的明天我就要见证一对恋人最美丽的结合--婚姻

婚姻这两个字，对于不同的人就有着因人而异的意义
它可以很美丽，它也可以很浪漫，同时它也很沉重，我指的是责任

踏入婚姻的生活也象征着人生的另一个起点
一对新婚夫妻就像是刚出生的宝宝，要学的东西多的是
夫妻这绰号附上的就是一辈子的责任，一辈子的承诺
妻子不能再随意闹脾气，而从前身为男友的丈夫，思绪方面也要更加提升，变得更成熟

在翻开人生全新的一面时，彼此的相处就必须增添多一份尊重，多一份厚爱，多一份包容，多一份信任，以及多一份体谅

说的不只是夫妻之间，一段婚姻涉及的还有彼此的家人。若以上的种种都不加反减，那以后的日子要怎么相处呢？能维持完美的婚姻果然是一大学问。

在这身心结合的一天，我衷心祝福这对准夫妻--愿爱洋溢在你甜蜜的生活中，让以后的每一个日子，都象今日这般辉煌喜悦

hyperintensified

2009-11-12T21:34:00.007+08:00

breath, human, breath...

there wouldn't be much time left before everything's coming to a due date. so breath more while you can..

semester 3 kicked off with some grueling schedules of weekly labs, tutorials, workshops etc. just by looking at the stacks of notes given by seniors was enough to cause you dementia. seems like things starting to get serious from here on. what more to mention of my disappointing physiology results during semester 2. so devastated after realizing that the reason to drown for that paper had nothing to do with my project afterall. which meant that it was due to the failure of scoring for the written paper itself. despite all the conscientious studies and early preparations, there will always be slight probability for inability to perform during exams.

accepted my fate, turned on my turbo this sem.

sem 3 introduces us to the real world of pharmacy. further subjects to cover include fundamentals of pharmacology, pharmaceutical microbiology and physical pharmacy. just by reading the names, it's obvious that there's no escape from perpetual scrutinization of chemical structures, anatomy of microbes and perennial calculations of drug concentrations.. :(

in addition to the mind-boggling workload, orientation is coming soon. there's the banner we have to deal with, t-shirts orderings and designs, booklets printings, and photoshops, sufficient enough to cripple one self.

AND there's 2 upcoming WEDDINGS to attend. one in less than one week time, the other by next month. and i have yet to get my dress!!!

totally broke without cash influx. the idiot supervisor still owe me my salary!! SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!

who wants to puke blood with me?!

the compound

2009-11-11T17:09:00.004+08:00

yor!! why on earth am i such a 'lucky' person.
so happened that i went to ss2 to leave my notes for photostat purpose, i thought i was indeed very lucky to get a parking lot just 2 doors away from the shop. what more in the midst of ss2 area, finding a parking lot is like digging gold.

left the car there for a while, walked into the shop, left my cd, talked to tauke niang, 10 minutes... JUST 10 minutes, kena dah!

hell yes, damn 'sui' today.. god knows how valuable these 10 minutes are...RM100 leh!!!!

Bayaran yang dikenakan : RM100
Tarikh : 11-11-2009
Keterangan : Gagal mempamirkan tiket bayar dan peraga semasa meletakkan kenderaan di dalam petak letak kereta..

(eh hello, it's mempamerkan, spells with an 'e' not 'i' ok?! memalukan rakyat malaysia saja!)

ish ish!! agatha... your birthdate is so memorable.. hahaha.. the first traffic compound in my lifetime..

time to flaunt my hoaxing skills in front of the 'anti rasuah' cops, for the sake of a deduction to RM30.

顺子 I'm Sorry

2009-10-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

常想起来你和我那段爱情
我总掉入深深的沉默里
我很久没有流泪的勇气
和爱情保持距离

I'm sorry, so sorry
如果我曾伤你
I'll borrow your sorrow
当爱已远去
我发现我习惯隐藏忧郁
也许是怕泄漏了原因
已经过了那么多个冬季
不应该还惦记著你
I'm sorry, so sorry
我是如此爱你
I'll borrow your sorrow
痛一直到如今

偶而我还在梦里
一如往昔你紧紧拥抱我在怀里
心中充满了太多感慨
一切都从新再来
永远都不再彼此伤爱

I'm sorry, so sorry
如果我曾伤你
I'll borrow your sorrow
当爱已远去当爱已远去
Said I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
我是如此我是如此爱你
I'll borrow, I will borrow your sorrow
痛一直到如今

我的志愿

2009-10-15T21:01:00.005+08:00

小时候就常常写的一篇作文-我的志愿

你们还记得曾经写过多少个吗？是警察，还是老师，医生，或则律师？难道是家庭主妇？哈哈。。

这些我通通都写过了。而且是一年换一个。一直到我上了中学，才慢慢发觉原来我最喜欢的就是设计。具体来说是室内设计。惊讶吧！很少朋友知道我有这方面的兴趣，可能是我很少有机会表现自己，又或许是我知道自己没有天分，不好意思表现。

可是说真的，我真的好喜欢设计。还记得要报考SPM 时，我犹豫很久才决定要考Visual Arts。对于只擅长炒作的我一点信心也没有，更何况还要现场画画。那一年的project 是设计一份月历，一份以玩具店为主题的月历。哇唠！有够难叻！

幸好那时有我的绘画老师协助，才能够度过难关。而且还顺利的考到 1A 的成绩！真是光荣啊！:P

另外一题的选择是设计亭园的landscape。其实我好想做那一题，毕竟开中我那凡。可是真的太难了。所以才无奈决定放弃。

就在那时，对设计的热诚也就燃烧起来。一有什么powerpoint presentation，我都想负责设计slides presentation。到大学也是如此。

我偏爱室内设计原因是我家真的是太过乱七八糟。家里的东西总随便放，一点秩序都没有。太不像话了。来过我家的人都知道，真是失礼啊。

最喜欢就是看IKEA寄来的年刊。里头有太多太多我爱的家具。也很喜欢去IKEA逛。爱去灯饰店选灯饰，爱到买浴室用品部门碰这个碰那个。反正关于家里的摆设，我都爱看。然后就会联想到，我以后的dreamhouse是什么模样。每次到MPH，都会不知觉翻开一些关于建筑或室内设计的书来摄取灵感。

最近ntv7播着‘摆家乐’。是一套关于两位主持人对室内设计大斗法的节目。超喜欢看！每个星期都会有指定的主题，两位主持人就要根据主题和预先的钱来购买摆放家里的饰品和一些简单的装修。

多么希望有一天我能够亲手包办整个家的设计（若钱不是问题的话 :P）

是时候要为即将来临的orientation 头痛了因为我是负责设计t-shirt的。还好我有兴趣，这不就是苦中作乐吗。哈哈。。
希望不会让大家失望。

二话不说，是时候看‘摆家乐’啦。收档！

p/s: 若有兴趣，请记得收看每逢星期四，晚上11点，ntv7 所播出的‘摆家乐’

what a gratifying distinction

2009-10-15T19:38:00.005+08:00

for the first time ever i've sent my student on the much reputable ABRSM graded theory exam. right after 6 weeks of anticipation preceeded by the commencement of the exam on 24th august, an email was sent to notify me about the results achieved by my student.

and voila!

the content of the rightmost column of the result table was the category achieved

and it appeared to be a letter "D"

oh dear!! this is bad i thought...

then looking at the column juxtapositioned to it was the marks achieved

092?? 092?! 092!!!! IT WAS 92 MARKS!!

which meant my student had acquired a D-I-S-T-I-N-C-T-I-O-N = DISTICTION!!!

so honoured!! so thrilled!! now i can set my mind to rest and proudly inform his parent about it.

hmm.. perhaps it's time to revise my piano tuition fees... haha..

years of covet- fulfilled!

2009-10-06T22:46:00.014+08:00

everyone, it's time to rejoice for the dreadful end of semester exam is finally over. and we 'jubilate' for doing the papers badly. hahaha..applause, applause!

how about another round of applause for me. you ask why? almost the whole world knows the glory :P

the 4th day of this much celebrated month marks the point of mount for me as an amateur photographer for owning a device which could eat up 70% of my total wage from last year's hard work. it's none other than.. cheng cheng cheng...

the highly acclaimed mid-range dslr

NIKON D90

put your hands together for the arrival of the 'divine' one

there were too much reasons for selecting this model over the d5000, please don't bother asking. and was it worth the extra 1k? a clear-cut YES. every penny spent on D90 is worth it though i very sakit hati lah. but still, one couldn't help to be astonished by it's features. no, they aren't as bombastic as what nikon's competitors can offer for the same range of dslr. the d90 is practical yet stylish and user friendly for the equivalent products of other hallmark camera manufacturers.

as much as i love my new "precioussss", i have qualms over the weight. with over a kilogram gadget hanging over your neck is not something everyone would fancy about. other than that, there's almost absolutely zero cons we can find about the D90 so far.

some eye candy..

frontal view

D90 comes with a 18-105mm kit lens which made it a very good buy

rear view- a 3" 920k articulated lcd screen

top view- extra control panel on top ease adjustments under sunlight

enough for the meantime to soothe your ravenousness. shall get back to my 300 pages user guide. you know lah, such high tech machines sure damn a lot of features to learn. hahahahahaha....

晚间催眠

2009-09-23T23:08:00.007+08:00

这星期以来，每晚都重复听着同一首歌。
孙燕姿的《眼泪成诗》，我好喜欢听。
我把 ipod 的 repeat mode 启动了。
就是这首歌陪着我入眠。
那柔和的旋律，带着浓浓的中国古典风的二胡声，实在是太动听了。

-我已经已经把对白留成了永远忘了天色究竟是黑是灰-

这歌词也充分的描述那夜深人静时的感觉。
突然发现原来那时候，孙燕姿会那么红的确有她的原因。
那独特的嗓音，叫人痴，叫人醉，
为由她才能唱出歌词的意境

-我已经已经把沉默变成了忏悔无路可退只能无言以对-

让我们一起重温在人气最巅峰时，这位看似外刚内柔女生唱出的《眼泪成诗》

2009-09-22T17:45:00.004+08:00

请停止对我的好
我会不自在
我会有遐想
我会不由自主地又陷入圈套

你知道吗
那抽离的过程很艰难
花了不少的时间和不断的思绪
够了！是时候醒了！

好！
从今天起转移注意力
我要专注于我的考试
我要重获自我！！

immediate verdict sought

2009-09-18T17:18:00.002+08:00

ar!!! offer for extended warranty ending soon!! i'd yet to decide on which model to buy.

450d of 500d?!?!

不要惹我

2009-09-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

我承认我不是一个脾气好的人
但也称不上坏脾气
我很容易生气
也不懂得怎么掩饰我的愤怒
从脸部表情你就知道我很不爽

可是我也有我的好处
容易生气的我也容易忘记
只要一觉醒来愤怒自然消减不少

所以身边的你们若发现我正在气你们
别见怪也该觉得庆幸
因为我不是那种收收埋埋的人
别怕我会对你有心计
这就是我

可你要记住
我不出声
不代表我好惹！！

龚柯允舔伤

2009-09-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

对你不会再等待
这个坏习惯要改
总是等在最后排
能等个什么未来

给我的温柔你就算再慷慨
再也不能将我的意志收买
把我从你身边扯开心是会碎的这才明白

自己舔伤我此刻还能靠在谁肩膀
不再假装我还能寄望什么愿望不忘
想自己舔伤我躲起来让时间去调养
把泪光痊愈成为一种成长

伤口不需要掩盖
爱不爱没人理睬
有时想彻底释怀
人就该停止徘徊

想自己舔伤我躲起来偷用时间去调养
自己舔伤我对你的爱不再对谁讲
不想伪装我接受失望会讲期望遗忘
我自己舔伤却包扎不自你的回想
会怎样若我还在你的身边喔自己舔伤

starry, starry night

2009-09-10T16:41:00.010+08:00

13 weeks of english classes came to an end today. i was not the stereotype of student who listens attentively in class, neither would i be the one who slacks all the way througout. it was only till today that i find english lessons meaningful. after several weeks of repetitive summary writing, today's task was on listening and using emotive languages, which i find the most interesting. topic was on don mclean's- Vincent

we've heard this song so many times, be it on the radio, or some singing competitions, and it was even featured in the sizzling hot 2008 hong kong drama series- The Heart of Greed. yes, to me it was just a song. a song where people of my dad's age will appreciate, a song whereby after being listened now will be forgotten the next minute.

the perception totally evolved after listening to my english teacher's story of the prevailing character, which is non other than the famous post impressionist painter and one of the most famous artists of all time, Vincent van Gogh. Vincent was said to be a highly emotional and lacked self-confidence individual. his life was of an unhappy one, for no one actually understood him. Van Gogh died at his own hands in France at the age of 37. he shot himself. although he sold only one painting during his life, van Gogh is now considered one of the greatest Dutch painters since Rembrandt. his fame was probably enhanced by his well-documented mental difficulties- he was diagnosed with schizophrenia (multiple characteristics).

van Gogh's most famous painting- Starry Night

the slideshow of his artworks played alongside with the song, Vincent, made me ponder that there's a hidden tender soul in him. his paintings were mainly of the surroundings and people he sees, the paddy field, the sky at night, the house he lived in. it was all so simple, yet soothing to sight with a little melancholic feel at the same time. perhaps all he'd ever wanted was merely some love and understanding while he was alive.

isn't it time for us to reflect on ourselves whether or not have we missed out anything important in life other than the usual working and studying routine.

when was the last time you raised your head and truly appreciate the starry night?

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflecting Vincent's eyes of China blue
Colors changing hueMorning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hands

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one asbeautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn on a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will

ning baizura - breathe again

2009-09-06T12:34:00.002+08:00

Have you wondered how it feels
When it‘s all over
Wondered how it feels when you just
Have to start anew
Never knowing where you‘re going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little
Cry a little Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little
Try a little more
I‘ll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go
But life still moves on
With a bit of luck
It‘s a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don‘t want to live on life‘s replay
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn
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was browsing through youtube for grey's anatomy's soundtrack. then, came across this magnificent song. ning had really opened my eyes to how good our local artiste can sing an english song. to some extent, i think she sounded a little like mariah carey..

she proved that it's not necessary to hit high pitches to be defined as a good singer.
nevertheless, it's still a song worth recommending - Breathe Again

it is all doom and gloom..

2009-09-05T12:14:00.003+08:00

On 15th June 2009, the UK Border Agency announced a newly revised shortage occupation list (SOL). For people from outside the European Economic Area (EEA) and had the aspiration to be a registered pharmacist in the United Kingdom, the new SOL is not something to look forward to. As the name suggests, SOL is a list of occupations which the UK government wants to fill urgently and is willing to open those jobs up for qualified foreigners. In other words, a foreigner will more likely to be granted a work permit if the job is in this list. In the revised list, community/retail pharmacist was no longer included, which means, getting permission to work as one in the UK maybe difficult to obtain. It is not all doom and gloom, at least hospital pharmacist remained in the list.

The change can translate into the imminent over supply of pharmacist in the United Kingdom, primarily in the community or retail setting. This is obvious if one keep track on the number of school of pharmacy mushrooming all over the UK over the last few years. From around 17 four years ago to 22 fully accredited universities providing the MPharm courses. This number excludes five other universities that had yet to churn out any graduates and also two universities that twin with Malaysian counterparts. The number of collabaration courses will inevitably increase in the near future.

If you plan to work in the UK after graduation, this information will be useful for your consideration or reconsiderations. If you plan to do pharmacy, the fact is that you will need to be more than a brilliant student to be able to survive in this profession in the near future, the days of pharmacist having a job for certain will be ending soon. In the UK and eventually in Malaysia.

Editors: The decision of Migration Advisory Committtee (MAC) of UK Borders (UK Immigration Dept) to remove community pharmacists and pharmacy technicians from SOL came as a surprise to both students and RPSGB. Apparently RPSGB, the body that represents pharmacists within the UK was not consulted for the decision. However, this decision will be reviewed in September 2009. Hopefully by then, there will be a favourable outcome. Meanwhile, it will be hard to non-EU pharmacy graduates to apply for working visa even if they are offered a place in pre-registration. As an alternative, (as far as we know) they will have to opt for post-study visa which allows them to work in UK for a maximum of 2 years.

extracted from: http://mpsuksc.wordpress.com/category/pre-reg-working-in-the-uk

now that i realize...

2009-08-31T22:49:00.003+08:00

that pint is pronounced as pie-nt

oh dear.. how embarrasing..

i was at baskin robbins to purchase one pie-nt of ice creams at a discount rate of 31% in conjunction with 31st of the month.

i said "i want one pint (i pronounced it pi-nt)?' in front of 20 other customers. malu betul!!!!
some more dare to acclaim myself as a university student. malu, malu!!

hahaha.. anyway.. was a good lesson learnt.

definition of pint : a British imperial capacity measure (liquid or dry) equal to 4 gills or 568.26 cubic centimeters or better know as a unit of capacity; equal to 1/2 quart, or 2 cups, or 16 fluid ounces

abruptness invades repeatedly

2009-08-22T11:23:00.008+08:00

our senior batch of pharmacy P107 cohort had already landed in glasgow 2 months ago. though didn't manage to know them, yet it's still a delight to read through their episodes of journey abroad. all the fun they had while making trips to different european countries in a bunch. living together cosily in hostels, all cramped up in the tiny pantry for dinner preparation. yet, speaking of looking forward to these days, i doubted a second. do i really long for the day to leave my home just because i wanted to experience things they've experienced, or is it merely just a random thought of the chance to be in a foreign country, away from home, away from my family chaos, away from the people i wanted to be away from.

one year's time, all i have is exactly one year's time to contemplate on how i'm going to live my days ahead. with addition to the elevated workload from next semester onwards, one year is never enough for a virgo like me who thinks too much on every detail. i'm worried, very worried, if i'll be in terrible homesick condition, whether or not i'll adapt living with friends, food and locals over in scotland, and, if i'll be able to fully withdraw the past feelings.

some would say that leaving home equals to making a new start ahead. to me, i'll just see it as another half glass to be filled. i see it as an end to all aggravations. i never deny that i am the kind who constantly sees the pros of everything fresh. some might categorise me as 贪新忘旧, i admit. if you have been through what i am going through now, perhaps you'll take that back.

i had always liked and tried to be different from others. i see things in different perspectives, i hate being in the shadow of someone else. i dislike myself being masked or being made comparisons to others. no, i do not mean that i want to be dominant in every aspects, i'm just loathing about the fact of being made equal. i am me in my own way. you can brand me with the statement of being exceptionally self-centred, i don't care, but please don't make me mask myself as the protagonists just because that's the norm.

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just recently i've been so flickr-dicted. like my friend said, sometimes you just wanted to have an escapade to a foreign place, bagging only basic necessaties and most important of all, my ipod and camera. one can hardly not have the sudden rush of travelling upon sighting the scenic landscapes of those european settings on flickr.

that night, i had this visualization of a lone-trip to some of the victorian cities, be it Milan, Vienna, Budapest, just somewhere out of the concrete jungle. somewhere i could witness the grandeur architectures and cultures dated back over 3-4 centuries ago. sipping a cup of latte by the streets, glimpsing at the bypassers, savouring the smells of the floral markets, breathing in some stress-free air. i wanted to make this a mono-travel. i just want to plug on my earphones and stroll down these streets, reminiscing the past, envisioning the future. there'll always be someone i'll think of, i don't know if this sounds silly, but i guess that is the only way to make a lone-trip not feeling alone. :)

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anyway, there's this current 10.2 MP nikon D3000 entry level model i'm eyeing on now. price yet to be announced for the malaysia market, but it is selling at USD600 elsewhere. so i'm guessing that it'll come up to about RM2000 here. just fits in my budget for a slr. anyone, anyone out there generous enough to sponsor the aspiring amateur? :P