.p.rae.lu.dium.

have been real relaxed since last month. nothing too special happened and that's why can;t come up with anything to blog. reflecting the days that had passed, i really had wasted much time not doing anything. but it's not up to me to decide. not that i do not want to look for jobs, I DID!

let me list out the jobs that i had went interviewed for. firstly is the music teacher position at this music school at taman tun. as usual, the same old reply, "we'll call you up if we have students for you". walao... if you don't have any students then what for you call me up for interview? main-main ar?

next, went to another music centre at kota damansara. asked for music teacher position, they offer me admin clerk. haih... work 6 days a week, 10 hours each day, and the pay...



the very big RM 1200. Yes! you see it right.

RM 1200. really make full use of the employee. *claps*

few days later, went to the kindergarten at the back row of my housing area. the working hours are quite alright, the pay is alright too.. approximately 7 bucks per hour. but due to some particular special reasons, turn down the offer again. then came across newspaper and called another kindergarten. this time, offering teacher assistant, working hours not as good as the previous one, the pay... way lower than the previous one, one thing to compliment, the environment and the principal. very nice principal indeed. i think they are in desperate need of assistants, she agreed to most of my requirements. no need to stay back till 6.30, no need to work on saturdays, from no EPF to given EPF.

then days after considering whether or not i will take the job, a call came. it's from a private school offering me music teacher position. fabulous pay, super nice environment. went for the interview, then principal says have to wait for the regional director to come back for a second interview before deciding on the exact pay. he asked me to wait for his call. in return, i've turned down the offer from the kindergarten. i do feel bad. then got intro to this daycare offering tuition teacher position for standard 1 and 2 students. excellent working hours and pay. due to my unconfirm timetable at the private school, i put them on hold. days passed, people from the private school had put my tolerance to maxima, i called them and they said the director was still outstation. and i gave them another 2 days. again.. no ring on the phone and i said, that's it. i wouldn't wait for it anymore. i gave the daycare a ring and what the heck, they told me that they had hired another teacher. SHIT MAN! i told them that i haven't confirm yet not that i do not want the job. the person in charge told me that she thought that i decline the offer and told the management to hire another teacher. WHAT THE... she's just way too best.

so desperate was i to find a job since august is approaching, i decided to rely on myself rather than waiting for those fake promises. i've had enough.

i've decided to have my own tuition classes. since the government implemented law on prohibiting school teachers giving private tuitions at home, i thought that this would be my chance of taking over their students. but who knows... it still is damn difficult to find students. WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

why is everything going against my will?!
what is happening?!
is it so difficult for me to find a secure, good pay, ok working , temporary job?

all these sums up had burden my fear for the a-levels results is releasing soon. that means .. more to fear.