.p.rae.lu.dium.

out of intolerable monotonous routine i'm having daily, after i've made up my mind to remain idle (academically) for another half a year before commencing studies in January 2009,


i did this...

haven't been using my dear gadget for quite a while on personal interests, so i decided to shoot here, there, everywhere using my limited source of macro focus from a Casio Z-750 digital camera..


#1 not sure if i still know how to hold them half a year later


#2 so FAR yet so near..


#3 haven't i forgot how to play Chopin's Scherzo in B Minor..


#4 found it! found it! evidence of 'professional' exposure to music education in sec school


#5 eh! i do read them ok?!


#6 kamsahamnida..


#7 here comes the unaccomplishable dream, delivered to your doorstep by DHL


#8 sorry, will have to turn it down :(

now i'm torn between two futures.

i'm am admitted.

yes, i'm admitted to Canada's York University.

today shall be a day of lazy blogging, whereby photos speak louder than words on how fun and close we can get in UTS.

shall we start?















#1 from left: ejan, syamimi, james, jen, diana, khairol, and sorry-i-forgotten-her-name














#2 back row: cheah, second row: dean, wong, front row: james, me, stanley














#3 aunty shee and me














#4 the top performers' group














#5 gzehan and me ( i'd always thought she's pretty)














#6 the jokers ary and dedek


















#7 and finally, the most professional joker, mr. hakim (cukup gaya dah!)














#8 the one who helped me achieved my monthly target, all thanks to achik














#9 our best dressed retro queen, diana














#10 kak intan and me














#11 the cina apeks of UTS


















#12 and last but not least, a photo of the leavers


in UTS, the people were great, simply one of the best working environment anyone could as for. it's like a big family here, no communication barriers and no discriminations at all.

everyone could just joke around and still perform so well in our sales. it's truly an amazing experience unraveled and leaving this company would just be a beginning of better things ahead. i will always remember each and everyone of you.

i dedicated my gratitude to everyone in UTS from the bottom of my heart, namely, mr phang for giving us the chance, the team leaders who assisted me in every aspects, and all the wonderful colleagues here.

thank you.

该是时候做出一个抉择。。。

我知道这可是一个即将改变我人生的一个决定。

我不知道这样的决定是否理智，是否应该，是否正确。

虽然还差一步才能够真真做出选择，可是时间一到，我知道我的路应该是这样走的。

问题是，我的心够坚定吗？我能走到路的尽头吗？我会半途而废吗？

妈妈说这个决定太仓储了，我是一时冲动。是吗？我真的是一时冲动吗？

我明白这将会是一个非常难熬的旅途，我会面对很多很多的考验。我准备好了吗？


每当我想起这决定的后果，我都会不知不觉地掉眼泪。

我不是害怕一个人去面对它，我顾虑的是它不会和我想象的那样完美。或则是它会变得比不完美来的更不完美。

你们都不了解我心里有多么挣扎，好像就快要窒息了。我不想再等了。我已经浪费太多宝贵的岁月。为什么你们就不能体谅我的心情？


我不是冲动。不是因为别人的一句话才选择了一个我一直以来都没想过的未来。

人生第一次做出一个这么重大的决定，我需要的不是你的意见，而是支持和鼓励。

也许我会后悔，可是我知道一旦走出第一步，就要鼓起勇气承担一切后果。这不是茶杯里的风波。我不想回忆的过程中有丝毫的遗憾。遗憾为何当初没踏出那一步。不！这不是我想要的

人，总是要跌倒后才学会站起来。这我明白。我会试着坚强面对一切。

有一首歌是这么唱的，“我只想坚持每一步，该走的方向，就算一路上偶尔会沮丧，生活是自己选择的衣裳。。”

如今的心情和歌词非常贴切。我真的只想坚持每一步。


你能给我力量吗。。。

here comes the long awaited result, little disappointing though>>

IELTS overall band >> 7.0

Listening >> 8.5
Speaking >> 7.5
Reading >> 6.0
Writing >> 6.5

despite how lousy i did for my speaking test, was lucky enough to get 7.5. ahaha... alahai.. why my reading so low one? why har? you tell me why?

after being a vegetarian for one month plus, i now discover some noticeable changes in sense of health.

















i began to dislike meat mainly chicken and pork. everytime when i had mixed rice with my colleagues during lunch, i tend to develop an impression of disgust over dishes of pork and chicken. am i really disliking the meat itself or is it the way they were prepared which made me felt this way?

condition of intestines improved too. haha.. it has been a month plus since i last felt uneasy after a meal of meat. it was not the full kind of feeling, it's just an unpleasant experience after having too much meat. you know what i mean.

next was, i used to have cracked feet, often serious ones. and this is very significant when the weather is damp or after i wore sneakers. and the condition persisted for a while, say a month? however, after the vegetarian habit, we shall bid bye-bye to cracked feet.

then, was the money saved as less consumption of meat means less money spent to buy them. your intestines are now easily contented though less amount of fats consumed, sometimes plain bread and vegetables are enough to satisfy your growling tummy.

can i persevere long on being a vegetarian? well, just have to move on and see.

i am sick and i need to rest now, fullstop

appeal to NUS failed + rejection from NTU = IMU MPharm

guess the equation shows it all.

yes, i'm doing the MPharm 2+2 programme next year. will apply after i get my IELTS results. finally get to settle my mind on something that has been troubling me throughout this 1 1/2 year wait. now i'm at ease.