seems like i've deserted this place for a month. can't help with so much memorising to do, so many applications to be filled in, and those unnerving preparations for case presentations. as daunting as these may be, on the bright side, thankful that these weren't even near to the distresses my fellow working friends are experiencing. work has made them lived their days in melancholy. work has ripped off the jovial side of my bubbly friends, work has cut off their usual social networks, and work, has built an invisible wall between us, unknowingly its thickness increases day by day.
often you'll hear laments on how obscure their job prospect is, how appalling their colleagues are. sometimes, one couldn't help but feel sorry for them when you come to realise the pain to wake up early everyday, being stuck in those nerve-racking traffic jams, repeating mundane tasks, which you didn't enjoy at all. despite all, the most saddening scenario is when going to work becomes attending a masquerade. everyone starts masking up, putting on fake smiles albeit how disgusted they felt towards their premiers. as time passes by, our genuine smiles subside unconsciously.
nevertheless, those who had to lived through their jobs for they had no better options, i couldn't salute these people enough. for they understood what 'no pain no gain' really meant. fretting over things we cannot make a difference does no good to the situation at all. perhaps it's healthier to presume that although we may drudge now, it's because we are young and we are able to. we labour for a purpose so mighty that when we look back decades from now, it's all worth it. at the very least, we're enriched from the ups and downs.
guess my body's showing signals of ageing. constantly knocked on my joints, result of clumsiness and the perpetual pain on my knee, which i assumed is an early development of arthritis. hahaha... but no joke, the pain was excruciating especially during bedtime. every bend comes with a wee bit ache. couldn't find any more excuses to defer my visit to the GP, although i'm incredibly reluctant to force myself through the 66km/h wind. weather in glasgow for the past weeks had been nonsensical. should i be expecting a cyclone or a hurricane to hit soon?
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倒数一个月又要独自乘搭14个小时飞机回乡。毕竟很迫不及待迎接那一天的到来，但一想到要离开家的那一天就自然的万般不舍。想念坐在怡保老店里喝传统白咖啡，听着老老的客人们大声的畅谈我国经济有多差，我国政治有多糟。你一句我一句嘻嘻哈哈的又一天。听到他们称赞本店食物好吃，又会在心里暗喜。
打烊了，客人走了，晚上的大街好宁静。只听见吊在天花板已有40多年的铁风扇摇动的声音。过年过节，大小姨和妈妈还有姨丈们都会待在大堂也就是摆在店中间最大的桌子那儿继续聊天。一边剥花生，一边喝茶，天南地北什么话题都聊。我就是爱做那旁听者因为这班”大人” 的言语实在是幽默中带点讽刺。这，就是广东话的威力。哈哈！
这也许看起来只是闲话家常，但不知为什么隐约里觉得如果以后50岁的我能像他们一样，偶尔能聚在一起畅所欲言那该多好。熬了大半辈子的我们不就只是想无忧无虑，有说有笑的过每一天。喜欢就和老朋友喝喝茶，去吃好的，打麻将或一起去旅行。这样的要求不过分吧？
